So much for changing my life

Well, last night I had a vision. I had a plan. I had faith in myself and in my venture. So much for being all high and mighty... Today the air was totally let out of the balloon - for two reasons. The first being that my hands were shaking like mad when I had to inject the rats today. I don't know what went wrong. I didn't feel nervous - maybe I just had too little to eat and it was my bloodsugar levels diving, I don't know. Anyway it didn't feel nice on my self asteem. Then at the train, my thought were pre-occupied with my injection-failure, I missed my platform... Which kinda let out even more air from the balloon... All in all I feel pretty shitty right now. But then again that can also be because of the lack of food and water. My body always starts to behave strangely if I don't eat.