The butterfly effect

Today was the day I went to see The Butterfly Effect with my cousin. I went, as I before mentioned, with mixed hopes. The storyline sounded rather unoriginal but then again it's an idea with an immense potential... Which it totally lived up to. What a movie! I LOVED it - and I am surely buying the DVD at some point. It made me leave the movie theater with a feeling of deep contemplation when it was over. Most of the way home I sat wondering how every decision I make affects who I am and what I am going to be - and perhaps how this affects others. I know I can't travel back in time to alter the decisions made by me in the past - but I can affect the future with the decisions I make right now. If I choose to visit a friend instead of staying home, if I choose to give some guy a chance or if I completely dismiss him at once, if I tell the truth or tell a lie, if I do one instead of another... Everything will have an impact one way or the other. And I can change that right now. My life haven't been like Evan's in the movie, but still there are things that I would like to change - not big important stuff but little personal things. And what the movie really told me was, that it is possible to change the course of the future. Just make the right decisions. Of course no one knows what those decisions are but in general you have a good idea. In your heart - at least that's the way I've experienced it - you always know what would be the right thing to do. At least I think I know most of the time. It's just not always that I choose to do those things - I sometimes shy back out of fear or insecurity or perhaps sometimes because of vanity and pride. I think that maybe I won't do that anymore. The Butterfly Effect temporarily opened my eyes somehow. It feels like when I saw the Sean Connery movie Just Cause. It gave me the same feeling but on another ground. That movie told me, how easy it is to make decisions and judgements on basis of your own point of view - a view that perhaps isn't always the one you should trust. You don't know everything - some pieces of the puzzle is hidden to you and that should always be kept in mind. I think both lessons are worth taking the time learning. And I am surely going to try. I am going to work hard to get the life that I want - and maybe I'll get it. Everything is possible. But one thing is for sure - if I keep making the "safe" choices and shying back, afraid to interact with the world, I sure as hell aren't going to live my life the way I want. And that is the lesson I'm going to take with me to my sleep tonight... It's late and I have to be an early-riser tomorrow.Tomorrow I'm going to ramble more about the evening, the movie (and the hot Ashton Kutcher). I wish I had time for it now - I so don't want to go to bed - but I haven't so keep smiling until we meet again!