About freedom

I never got around to continuing on my little project here. I've been very busy these last few days - believe it or not :o)

Once again I'm here at my office, typing away, waiting for my dad to come and pick me up. I'm not sure I wish to counnt the hours a person wait in his/her life - in my case I'm sure years are spent in total. It's actually a waste of life.

But that was not what I wanted to discuss with you all. I wanted to tell you that there's exactly 324 days (incl. today) until my flat is done and I can (hopefully) move in. I begin to feel the sweet scent of freedom :o) I've just read a book by Anne Tyler (don't know the English title)which was essentially about the lives of the people living at a pension. One of the characters said something, which reminded me so much of how I feel. She said that what she wanted more than anything in the world was privacy, to be able to do what she wanted, when she wanted and have no one intrude on her. It's not exactly what I feel but it's close enough. I can't wait to have no one intrude on me. It's probably not that interesting in the long run because no intrusion also means solitude, and I think that solitude can be very lonely.
But I long for privacy and to a certain extent solitude. Mainly because I've never ever spent an entire weekend alone in an empty house. My parents are the sort of people that prefers to stay at home. So right now I can't wait to have it all to myself. One day there's gonna be a boyfriend, then husband and children - but right now I'm more than content by just being me.
Which reminds me of another thing... I spoke with a friend on the whole love-life deal and I told her that I had no idea about what kind of person I wanted to have in my life and as long as I didn't know that I wasn't looking for a boyfriend. I know it sound new agey - like trying to find yourself kinda bull - but she agreed with me. And I still find it to be so. If he drops by by chance, so be it but I won't go looking. I suspect that some people find me weird on that account. But that's gonna be their problem.