Happy New Year Everyone!

So it's time for me to once again put my fingers on the keys and type away... First I want to express how tragic I find the tsunami catastrophy. I can imagine how horrible it must be - and then again I probably can't, I guess you never really can. But that's all I want to say on the matter. I think it's been in the media too much lately - I know you have to cover the story but it seems to me that they're sucking up people's grief like it was sweet nectar and I find that totally disgusting - like sticking a camera up into people's faces, while they're trying to hide their tears.

A friend of my parents have also just died, from cancer and I'm going to her funeral tomorrow. It's so sad because I cared for her so much. She was a great person, so creative and kind. She was really amazing. I still can't quite understand that I'll never see her again. I guess it'll dawn on me to the funeral. It has been like that with every funeral I've ever been to. Mostly Christoffer's those years ago, because I was somehow directly affected even though he was no longer a part of my life and hadn't been for quite some time. He played - and still plays - such a big part in my memories of the last years of school and the sophomore year of high school. It's funny how I came to think about that, since I spoke with my friend about him just the other day.

But despite everything I'm just so happy. It's sort of hard to be so happy in midst of all this grief and horror. It makes you feel guilty somehow. But I am happy, I simply can't help it. I've finally found my apartment! It's so amazing, 90 square meters and all shiny and new. I'll be able to overlook a pond from my terrasse and I'll be living very close to two of my friends through 16 and 11 years.

As for my new year's eve... Well, let's just say that it was eventful. I don't want to tell about other people on this site so it sort of remains a secret unless of course I've already told you :o) What I can tell you though, is that I was greatly flattered and greatly embarrassed at the same time. But even so it was a great selfesteem booster. I usually enjoy the parties at my friend's house because I'm so fond of the people there. They're being totally sincere all the time, I feel, and because of that you never have to pretend to be anything you're not. That just makes their company totally relaxing and comfy.

But one of the most joyful events is actually my new found friendship a girl named Camilla, whom I've known through 16 years. We'd drifted apart for a period of time but now we've spent much time together lately. We're able to talk like we did back in school - about all sorts of things, dreams & worries and everything. Through all these years I've only seen her about once a year but it's just now when we've spent 3 evenings together in the course of about a month that I've realised that I've actually missed her. I'm really glad, I have her back as my friend :o)