torsdag, august 26, 2004

Thoughs on subjects like movies, university and babies

This is turning out just the way my letter writing also has. Starting with endless excuses for why I haven't written/up-dated for such a long time. My excuse this time is perhaps even more lame than usually. I've simply run out of things to say. I've taken up e-palling again (quite enjoyable really) and I've discovered that there seems to be a limit to how many deep and meaningful (yeah, right!) things a person has to say during one day. I simply seem to run out of words.
Speaking of words (you know what I mean, if you've watched it), I watched "The Human Stain" this morning. I bought it cheap last week and it has been lying around waiting for me. This morning I felt like watching it. To my surprise I liked it. Even though I bought it I really didn't expect to like it. But I did. Perhaps this comes to mind because of Anthony Hopkins, but the movie really reminded me of "Hearts in Atlantis", where nothing really happens but yet everything happens. A movie solely based on character and not on plot or action. It's 100% actor-driven with great performances and great lines.
Well, on to the bitching... I haven't had the chance to for a few days but I truly feel like it. Everything sucks! Well, it doesn't really but the university is a mess. The new semester begins on monday and still I'm not assigned to any courses. There's a new structure of the studies which is beginning to take form during this semester and for the first time we have to get assigned to the courses electronically. But that isn't working and my studybuddy and I are totally desperate now. We've contacted every authority on the subject and are now awaiting answers. Tomorrow we're going to the student's guidance office to sort the matter out so we can begin courses next monday. I'm so pissed about all the trouble this has caused us and that we've spent (and are still spending) hunge amounts of time on this crap. Well... Nice to get that off my chest. Just needed to feel the rage there for a moment and set it free. I'm much better now...
And off to the good news... One of my friends are pregnant!!! I'm so excited!!! I haven't quite grasped the subject yet though. It feels weird. But still... I'm so excited! It seems everybody around me is having babies (quite fortunately, it wouldn't be so nice if they had goats, right?). Just this year two of my cousins have had babies, one of my pen-pal has and an old friend of mine too. I've never been around babies very much so it's quite a weird feeling suddenly being surrounded by them. I'm not one of those women who are absolutely crazy about babies and children and who thinks that every child is a wonder. But I'm softening up "on my old days". I still don't find children in general fantastic but I've come across quite a lot of toddlers that I really love. Children and babies has as much personality as the rest of us and with some you just click and with others you don't. Babies tend to like me, though. Usually they can just stare at me forever and small children follow me around like little puppy dogs. I have a theory it's because I don't jump on them as so many of the other adults do. Giving them all their attention and trying to get their attention as well. I let them come to me if they like and let the alone if that's what they prefer. I remember being around 3 or four years old and whenever my father's aunt would come to visit I would hide behind the closet because I was so terrified of her. She would completely overwhelm me with attention - very much unwanted on my part. I remember that all too well to put another child in that situation.
I've suddenly run out of things to tell. So from here it's over and out. Roger that?

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