The Story of my Love Life

The first of boys to win my heart
Was strange in every sense
He was my friend but all the while
We played the game of play pretend
Worked my mojo, won my guy
Got my very first of kisses
But we broke up not once but thrice
Not sure of our own wishes

A short while later I was pursued
By a very handsome guy
He tried his best to win my heart
Never did, I'm not sure why
I was in love with someone else
Never gave this guy a chance
So at a friend's big birthday bash
He left without a glance

Another on my dating list
Was the friend of a friend's friend
For a long while he had me fooled
Thinking I was in love again
But dreams die hard other dreams live on
That lesson I did learn
When I kissed my former sweetheart
And left this to crash and burn

A while ago I got my eye
On someone hot and cool
He seemed to be the perfect match
Now I appear the fool
I was then all set on him
All ready to make the kill
When a good friend whispered to me
He was with his girlfriend still

A few years back I fell in love
But then I tumbled out
He belonged to someone else
And that's without a doubt!
Saw him snogging with his girl
His hands all over her
I felt the knife stabbed in my chest
The rest appears a blur

I was now all through with love
My heart behind lock and key
Until I met the sweetest guy
My eye did ever see
But I was shy and he was too
I let chances pass me by
Though Lady Luck was on my side
I never dared to try

My mind made up to change my fate
Take action into own hands
I got a profile on the net
Ready to make plans
I came upon a nice fun bloke
Who shared my points of view
But from my mistakes I never learn
And I never saw it through

With nothing now to keep my heart
Occupied all day
I found a man of whom to dream
So I dreamt my days away
But it was just a silly game
Just a crush to pass the time
And very soon I realised
I would never call him mine

The weeks went by, months and years
Determined now I was
To live my life on my own terms
Do nothing "just because"
The girl that I had now become
Let down many a man
Though always very gently
But with steadiness of hand

The man who tried to win my heart
With kindness and with flatter
Was eleven years my senior
But that really didn't matter
The age was not the reason
That a "we" could never be
He was the sweetest kind of person
But that is all he was to me

Very soon I caught the eye
Of another hopeful bloke
I'll never know the grounds for that
For we barely even spoke
He sent word to me by a messenger
Like the children did at school
But third party communication
Is never really cool

A person from my past returned
To woo me once again
But that will never happen, no
He can only be my friend
But I had reached a point in life
Where I welcomed every flatter
Appreciated the attention
And all the chitter chatter

I never learn from my mistakes
And soon a new game was on
The quarry was the greatest guy
To ever see the dawn
Soon I found my thoughts all bared
And my hopes up in the sky
But as every castle built in Spain
It shattered and so did I

The thought of my shipwrecked lovelife
Has haunted me for seasons
Though I've never really realised
The very different reasons
Afraid that I will never find
A love to call my own
Afraid that I'll forever be
Doomed to be alone

So now I had another plan
Different than before
To never dream and never hope
To never wanting more
I've never fallen easily
But when I fall it's hard
And I never stick to my own plans
So I've had a change of heart...